Poem

I am invisible, but I show
I am burned out lamp that still does glow
I am used but still brand new
I am a mystery without a clue
I am false but true as well
I am in heaven but live in hell
I am me but also you
I am deaf but I can hear
I am afraid, but with you there is no fear

A fantastic start

Since I am now an official blogger, I figure I'll start out lazy and post up some of my favorite poems.... most wrote in major mental anguish and bad relationships. but oh well... here they go



why do we subject ourselves to this pain
why are we so eager to experience loss
Everythings a movie
until we face reality
until we see for real
and see our lives for the shit they are
confusion, hate, agression
pain, heartache, these all come
we open our lives and heart
OPEN THE FLOODGATES!!
love??? is it really
i'm tempted, tortured helpless
you hold me captive
i can't escape no matter what
i try
I'M NOT A CHILD
i'm strong and able
you see me as week and needy
how can i make you see
i love so i hurt
contiuously
you do nothing
you say you wanna help
BULLSHIT
friends are the only solution
love will never be the answer
all there is is pain
BROKEN AND WEARY
i can't take this shit
i'm at the end of my rope
NO I'M FINE!
i'm not dumb
suicide is not the answer
i know that
do you believe me
do you take me seriously
SO BE ALONE!
but throw me a line
i can't stab in the dark
i'll hurt someone else
i need protection
FROM YOU
i've never hurt so much
nothing has stopped
STOPPED
my life like this
I'M HELPLESS I HAVE NO POWER
LET ME GO LET ME FLY
MAKE A CHOICE AND EMBRACE ME
OR LET ME SINK OR SWIM
by myself....
alone again
alone
content
alone


And one a little happier

Long long ago
back when the world was young
the air was filled with sweet perfume
words first danced upon my tongue
i was innocent as the day
and braver than can be
i had no performance to put on, no mask, only me
As i frolicked and i played the day fled into night
but no fear of Darkness did i have
when i held my pillow tight
Days crept into weeks
and weeks turned into years
but when i thought my dreams would come
All i could find was tears
But braver still i became
and braver still I AM
Never will i misplace my heart
within a spiteful man
But little girl do not fear
Put on a smile
Because even thought times will be rough
They'll be over in a while
Enjoy these years while they last
Enjoy life as it comes
and take the pain with the joy
for life is filled with some
The world will seem to spite
and hate your every move
And then you'll meet your kindred love
Your heart forever to soar

A journey begins

As this semester at SJSU starts I find myself having to write a blog for the first time ever. I've never been one to write down feelings or thoughts that much.... I never even wrote in a diary when I was little. But since I actually have to write, I thought I would have a bit of fun with it.